I feel a pain from deep inside I haven’t heard from in a while,
this familiar pinging in my brain, nagging at me like a child.
I thought I finally stitched myself completely back together,
that all illusions had been shattered and bad times weathered.
Was I so wrong to drop my guard; has it snuck its way back in?
Has loneliness made its home inside me once again?
My heart was resting comfortably, while I let my head drive.
Who gave my heart permission to step once again outside?
I need to lock her up again, and hide away this nasty key;
for I can’t afford to be distracted by hopes and dreams that may never be.
I get through life, one day at a time, never doubting in today,
because there is no going back to fix all that has brought me to this day.
I cannot seem to close this door, never really tight for good.
Some part of me yearns for more, for love, just like she thinks she should.
So I struggle once again with loneliness from deep down in my soul,
For I can’t win a battle with myself, if the demon takes control.